October 23, 2011

Another day free from the hospital and I am so thankful I hope I can make it until I start my next round of eight days of chemo. I have a new companion now constant nausea and the food I used to like has not appeal. Yesterday was another good day we had visitors and a good friend who came over and took care of our yard. I love having visitors they lift me and give me so much hope. Well I am exhausted and need to get some rest so I am signing off for today.

October 22, 2010

Yesterday was a better day I was weak but able to focus. Today I feel a little better and will send out a few e-mails and answer questions I have received. I am so thankful for the visitors who have come and spent time with both Jan and I the past few days. This has been great and I get so much from these visits everyone is welcome in our home. That will change in the next few months as cold weather comes upon us I have been told I will need to avoid children under the age of 14. This is very difficult I have enjoyed the babies that have been here along with the little toddlers. The Fall colors looks to beautiful and the community garden across the street is about history. I am looking forward to next Spring it is one of my most enjoyable times of year. Well it is time I should start on the e-mails.

October 20, 2011

At last after five days of being in the hospital with blood and infection issues I get to come home for five days. Then I go back and start eight days of chemo. Not something I look forward to but each one brings me closer to the day I can be well again. I was allowed to come home only if I would allow home health care to come in each day and administer antibiotics through an IV that is not big deal I jumped at the chance. It was a hard five days and yesterday they told me I could not come home today but we worked out a deal. Also I love being around Jan.

October 15, 2011

Yesterday was another lazy day for me not doing much but feeling okay. Had some great visits and one I truly enjoyed a relative came with their children who are so darling what a great lift that was. Their children just lifted my spirits along with Mom and Dad. There is nothing like young children in your life what joy they do bring. Jan came home and worked so hard doing yard work I am just amazed at her. I am so blessed to have her as my wife, what did I ever do to find such a wonderful woman. Again, I am so thankful for the visits and the lift I get from them. I keep thinking eight more treatments and I am done with chemo.

October 14, 2011

Yesterday was quite the day I knew I was not feeling good and did not know what was wrong I was very weak had to go to Huntsman Cancer Hospital for labs. Well they found it my blood was low in a number of areas and I needed two units of blood. As the day ended I got home at 5:30 P.M. now I am up at 2:30 feeling weak and wondering what today will bring. With all this treatment you just never truly know how you are doing? I know I will need to get some fluids in my system. At least the hours that started being days have now translated into weeks and months so we are seeing some very slow progress. I have constant companions, nausea, diarrhea, pain, sleepless nights, fear, anxiety and weakness. Yet this will all but be a moment in time and the effort I am putting in along with my dear wife and friends will pay off. My goal is to be cancer free like Herman Cain.  

October 13, 2011

Yesterday was a difficult day did not have an appetite and felt sick to my stomach. Sometimes this takes such a different course than I think I am going the recovery has been harder this time. Not only can I tell I am weaker but when I stand I get so dizzy. One thing I am starting to know is that this is going to be the longest year of my life just getting through this and I am determined I need to make it.

I am so thankful for having such a good wife Jan provides me all the support and love anyone could ever ask for. Jan has an outstanding attitude and I could not ask for more she shows strength I never knew she had. How she does all that she does is beyond me. She says she is on auto pilot; however I know her too well and know this is taking a toll on her also. How blessed I am to have the great wife I do.  

October 12, 2011

Yesterday was a great day had visitors and I gee that helps out so much when you are a home bound person. I love having visitors they lift you and the energy that comes is amazing. I truly don’t believe I would have made it this far. After my second treatment I was very ill and did not have the energy to take care of myself, ended up in the emergency room and truly believe that would have been the end if it had not been for all the prayers and caregivers I had that week.

I cannot say enough about all the good people who check on me either by phone or just stopping by to say hello. I have learned so much about visitors both family and friends and just stopping by means so much to me. I love you all and the great support you are to both Jan and I. Our burdens are so much lighter and our life has so much value at this time we are truly blessed. When I am better I have a testimony of service that I don’t think I can match but will do my best to fill.