2-29-2012

Another day of staying home and having cabin fever, I sure do want to get out and do something. I am feeling better and I have not collected the kidney stone so I ask myself what is up with that? Oh well at least I am getting better a little bit at a time. I can’t be in public because my immune system is so weak.

2-28-2012

I am so perplexed about the kidney stone the pain comes and goes and I just can seem to get rid of it. I will be in contact with my doctor today to see what he says I should do I would think it should have moved by now. Or maybe the emergency room just did not diagnose it right. Oh well just a little bump in the road.

2-27-2012

All I can say is that kidney stones are anything but a man’s best friend.  The pain is so bad today I can’t think of it getting any worse. I am trying to be a man about this but I am not doing very well the pain is so intense that I am just sick to my stomach. I was very slow getting up this morning not a good sign. I want relief but was told it would come once the kidney stones pass oh great. This feels like it has been an eternity.

2-26-2012

Friday I came down with a terrible pain on my right side and the pain would not go away so I drove myself to the emergency room and after a few tests the doctor came back and told me I had a kidney stone. Great now what do I do just go home and wait it should pass in a few days. Well Friday I had lots of pain and so did I on Saturday I am feeling a bit better today but I have not been able to collect the stone yet. This is truly a painful experience.

2-24-2012

I find it amazing how fast time flies even when you are not busy doing things that you like to do. It has been almost nine months since I found out I had cancer and what a journey it has been. It is hard to believe I have been through everything I have. It is almost like a bad dream and I am so thankful for modern medicine, family and friends.

2-23-2012

I am so blessed with a good family, great wife, friends and work associates. Life under the circumstances of the past eight months could not have been better I have been carried by these great individuals and this is the most humbling experience anyone could ever have. My life has been blessed in many ways and the love I have felt is second to none I have ever felt before. I have made many mistakes and love and forgiveness have been the keys to a healing soul. I love the Savior and all he has done for me, which I will never be able to repay him. I strive to be the person he wants me to be but know no matter how hard I work to become that person I will fall short of everything he has done for me.  

2-22-2012

Today I had the opportunity and privilege of going to my cancer doctor again. She said she is pleased with my progress and wants to see me again in two weeks. This was great news she also told me to back off until May on my colonoscopy since my immune system could not deal with it. Great news who wants to go through all the prep but I do need to complete it so I will take advantage of that opportunity in May. Jan is there supporting me all the way she just smiles when they say I will need another procedure and I just wince at the thought of another procedure. Oh well I am still here something I never thought I would be here to see.  

2-21-2012

Yesterday was a great day we had a visitor and Jan was home to celebrate President’s Day. I was not up to much we left for about an hour and came back home. I am still struggling with stomach issues and it takes a drain on my energy. My life is actually real boring and will not change much. But boring is okay at this age.

2-21-2012

Yesterday was a great day we had a visitor and Jan was home to celebrate President’s Day. I was not up to much we left for about an hour and came back home. I am still struggling with stomach issues and it takes a drain on my energy. My life is actually real boring and will not change much. But boring is okay at this age.

2-20-2012

I have been struggling with stomach issues and depression for about a week and just can’t seem to shake either one. I try to keep busy and focused and that has helped in the past I am also taking medication and that does not seem to help. I don’t want to get up and face the day but I do because I know things will not improve if I stay in bed. My body trembles like crazy and I have been having some dizziness which seems to be a factor. All in all I am thankful and pleased with everything and just can’t put my finger on the reason for the depression and panic attacks.  

2-19-2012

My heart is still full of joy seeing the twins yesterday they are so cute, loveable, friendly and full of energy Brian and Amber are great parents doing an excellent job with these two. They are also very patient with each other and the twins. What a great day it was to be around them I would love to be their baby sitter on a full time basic. Not often you see two year olds that are this sweet.

2-18-2012

Yesterday was a good day but did not even compare to today. Today Jan and I had the privilege of visiting Brian my youngest son his wife Amber and their twins. There is nothing like two year olds both a boy and girl. It made my day and was so exciting to see them first time since Christmas. They are talking up a storm and did not actually know how to deal with Grandpa Dale, I had my mask on and it was disturbing to them but by the time I left they were comfortable with me.

2-18-2012

I have an appointment with a doctor that specializes in radiology he will be running an exam to see if I have any traces of cancer and will determine if I need radiation treatment. For the most part I think this is just a precaution and will function as a safety net. Life is so good when you have a great wife like I do Jan is the best and I hope I don’t embarrass her. I love her so much and she is so kind and understanding of my life is great when you have of wife like Jan and a husband like me.   

2-16-2012

Yesterday was another good day I can tell I am getting stronger and feeling better.  Had a few issues with my stomach but other than that I was okay. I am getting to the point that I want to get out of the house and go for a ride or do something. I have been cooped up since late July and now I am ready to go but with my immune system being what it am my doctor does not want me to compromise myself which is very hard. So I spend the majority of my time at home or going to the doctor’s office and medical labs for tests. Which is probably a good thing since I always get myself in trouble when I am out in public?

2-15-2012

Yesterday was an uneventful day, somewhat low on the energy but very thankful to have been here for another Valentine’s Day. Jan makes me so happy she has a great sense of humor that just keeps me going. I love her laugh and positive attitude along with her being to articulate and a great culinary artisan. This is a great time to be alive and happily married to the woman of my dreams.  

2-14-2012

Yesterday was a good day I left the house for about an hour. I can’t have flowers in the house and I know Jan loves roses. Knowing Valentine’s Day is this week I decided that Jan needed an opportunity to have some roses so I wanted to surprise her and went to the flower shop to get some roses. Well I was not the only person in line and I got caught she called me on my cell phone. I answered and she said do you have company and I said know then she said are you watching TV and I said know then she said I hear voices and I said that is right I am at the store getting you something I will be at your school in 10 minutes. Well I got caught and it was no surprise Jan seems to always catch me and I don’t get to surprise her.

2-13-2012

Another day in my slow recovery process from chemo and I am amazed at what a beating I actually took. I do feel a little bit better each day and I am so thankful for life, friends, family and the greatest work associates ever. This has truly been a humbling experience for me and I know how fragile like can be. I want to enjoy each day to its fullest and be the best I can be. In looking back I remember a statement that fits me so well “The older I get the better I know I use to be”.

2-12-2012

Yesterday was a good day got out and did a few things went grocery shopping with Jan and then to a movie something we have not done for a real long time. Came home and spent time doing a few chores and eating the best home cooked meals Jan has turned into a real culinary artesian she is a great little chef. Well what more could I ask for I am so blessed and the sad thing was we did not have one visitor all day.  

2/9/2012

Yesterday was a most interesting day felt sick to my stomach and then my wife Jan came home and picked me up off we went to the doctor. My mind tells me I can do things but my body says I can’t and not much energy. Sleeping all day is getting old and I want to be a productive person feeling like I can add something to this world. Then I have chemo brain dysfunctions and can’t speak to write like I would like to. This is very discouraging to me at the present time. Yet I have so much to be thankful for and the one gift I would like to have it the ability to write and speak in an organized manner.

2-7-2012

ch day it seems like I make a small step forward, did leave the house three times went for a ride with a friend, went to the doctor with Jan and dropped off out taxes. Sure felt like a whole lot walking up steps is still very hard but I made it. I spent a few minutes on the computer yesterday still a lazy person not accomplishing a whole lot but making an effort to get stronger.  

February 6, 2012

Well today is my first day flying solo since about December 14, 2012. I miss Jan more than I thought I would and she has only been gone about an hour. Jan, bless her little heart has done so much for me during this past eight months she deserves an award for being the best wife a guy could ever want to have. I have been so blessed I am starting to feel better. I went to church yesterday and it was great to see so many good friends and people did not feel strong enough to stay and left early came home and fell asleep. I love you all and know how blessed I am and I am thankful for all your prayers.

February 2, 2012

I had a good day yesterday went for a walk and found out what little strength I truly have. I just keep hoping that I can get stronger each day and I know what a slow process this is going to be. I am still having challenges with nausea even when I take the medicine designed for it. I just hope that I will be able to get over the sickness I feel each day it is a bit overwhelming.

February 1, 2012

Wow, this has been a rollercoaster of a ride. I had no idea how bad things could get after the bone marrow transplant. I have been so weak and the nausea has not gone away. Don’t get me wrong on this I am so thankful for all the blessings that I have had and all the support it makes things so much easier. I am so thankful to Jan my wife she has been at my side for the past two weeks she is a much better wife than I could ever think of being a husband. I always thought I could be a better husband but now she has done so much for me I could never repay her for all she has done and how she has done it just blow my mind. I love her and appreciate her so much more. I am so blessed.