Well I have made it through five weeks at work and just
don’t have the energy to do the things that I want. It was good I had the 4th
off it took me all day to just trim a few plants around the house. It has been
almost a year since I started my chemo treatment. To be here and doing what I
am seemed so far away at the time. I have learned a lot this past year and know
more than ever how temporary this life is. I am grateful for the opportunity of
the last year and the short time I have ahead of me. Life takes on a whole new
meaning, most of all when you become so dependent on others for the simplest things
of life. Work is that necessary thing required so that you can sustain
yourself. I am so thankful that I did go to work for the government it was a
hard decision at the time but what a blessing it has turned out to be. I love
being around military members and the people of all faiths that I can share my
life with. The struggles of the past year are gone, no longer is that the big
thing in life today it is just my hope and prayer that I can be a good employee
and hold up my end of the bargain. I get
back to work and find others who have come down with cancer since I left in my
own building two while I have been gone and several others on base also. Even
more who have family members contending with this disease? I love the lord and
all those who have prayed for me. I could not do this on my own and I actually
had little to do with the whole process. I was more of an observer than
anything else.