July 31, 2011

 Worst day yet don’t know who is winning this battle the chemo or the cancer. Had a very upset stomach and this new chemo treatment will go on for the next 72 hours. Terry a very good friend of mine for over 20 years came to visit, these visit mean far more to me than anyone will ever know.  Terry traveled all the way from Perry Utah. He has always been such a good and faithful friend why I am so blessed? I felt bad that he had to leave Ana his wife is not doing so well herself and he has been a great caretaker. Seems like this is something I never wanted to have was a caretaker and now Jan has been delegated this role. Terry you made my day and life is so much brighter.

After Terry left I was hit with some severe stomach pain and lost control and need help to get cleaned up. I don’t need to paint a picture of this. I felt so disgraced by what I am unable to do. Then I got a phone call from another great man in my life, Fred Ferguson who served as my spiritual leader some years ago. His words were so kind I just fell into tears this after my recovery and feeling of disgrace.  It was so good to hear him and know that he was there how can I be so blessed with such good friends who care and honor their fellow man. I don’t feel worthy of these great blessings and opportunities.

After I finished talking to Fred another friend called his name is Brent and his little boy
Donovan offered a prayer for me. Not long after that Jan, my wife called she is in San Diego and offered a prayer for me on the phone. I felt comfort as I have not in a long time and became calm and rested.