Did not sleep well last night the bone pain keep me awake most of the night not to include my emotional feelings about what is going on. Sometimes I don’t think I will make it. Yesterday I went to the Bone Marrow Treatment center for labs. I was told I would hear back within four hours never got a phone call. So today we are to start harvesting my stem cells. I have been taking five very painful shots in the stomach for the past five days and I am out of these shots. I take two in the morning and three at night. The purpose of these shots is to put my bone marrow into overdrive producing about three times as much stem cells as normal. Not know my status and not have a phone call back on my labs is a bit disheartening to say the least. I don’t have a great deal of hope but I am trying to do my best and have a good attitude. This is wearing on my more than I can even share. So much chemo already done and a ton more to go about 2,200 hours more to go it is a great deal of work. The only thing that is keeping me going is my good friends and family that provide so much support. I don’t know how anyone could do this alone. This is the hardest thing I have ever done both mentally and physically and now it is starting to take an emotional toll. I am not sleeping at night and worry about so many other things. The financial cost is getting out of my control; I am looking forward to open season at work and will apply for a second insurance to help defray the cost.
Again as usually my many thanks to those who visit and provide support. I hope the stem cell treatment this week goes well; I will be at the Huntsman Cancer Hospital every day from 0700 A.M. until released. This is a new experience.
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